"I've been wondering, what is like to be in love. But sometimes, everything that crossed in my mind, will definitely happen. Its not about the luck, the gift, its about the self confident saying that im ready for everything but to be really honest, im not ready for anything. Sometimes, im worried of myself, maybe i just need to go on. Being in love may sounds like a-very-happy life but im telling u with my honest thought, it doesnt sound exactly the same. Playimg with my feelings is like calling for revenge."

Love, im used to falling in love. crushing. But not for real. Eye candy, yeah you know what is it.

1. The Love That Would Remind You How Simple It Is To Feel.

2. The Love That Changed You.

3. The Love That Left You Hanging.

4. The Love You Never Got Over.

5. The Love You Settle.

(dont take the picture without credits, thanks)

I've been wondering what is like to be in love, but sometimes, everything that crossed in my minds will happen. Sometimes, im worried of my self. Maybe i just need to go on.
Hello, so good news that i will be writing new story bcs the old story i've already finished it. Many people posted on my question box (sorry im too lazy to give links) to do a story based on my "love story" which is NO hahahhaa. no im kidding, its time to tell everything lah ahhahahahaha. pls. as usual, i will be posting based on my experience BUT i used characters to describe it. I hope u guys anticipate with my new story huhuhu bcs i got this feeling of "NO CONFIDENT" .....................




ok bye hahahhaaha
hearts on everyone ily :)
It was evening. I got some readings to do. But i found that im so bored at that time. Mom was yelling at me because im not answering her questions. "Do you have homework?" "Honey im getting some reports from your teacher that you are not doing you homework" "Mom are you lying?" "I do most of my homeworks" "MOST?" "Mathematic is boring tho" "Well u really need to gear up mathematics or" "OR??" "No more story books" I was kind of surprised. sighs. mum is really forcing me. "well, i'll buy it myself" "whatever im going to market, u're in charge" "ok bye". Did i ever tell u guys that i have a crush? well may be no. but im gonna tell u now. i have this one guy. im gonna give him a nickname not his REAL NAME as "A". i have to admit that i like him since last year but yeah due to my "shynesss" (do i even spell it wrongly ok whatever) i dont get chance to talk to him that much. i mean like NO CHANCE. i was so happy until i realised "HE DIDNT EVEN KNOW ME" "HE DONT REALLY GOT INTO ME THAT MUCH" and sometimes i think "HE KNOWS 0% ABOUT ME" and im sorry to say that when u are in a relationship with me, it will go like this:

(im so serious about this)
but i'll try my best to be myself (simple: NO) SO HE ONCE CHAT WITH MY LITTLE SISTER WHICH MAKES ME "REALLY" MAD (mark this word forever) I MEAN MY SISTER IS CHATTING WITH SECRETLY HAISH CAN U EVEN FEEL ME RIGHT NOW. MNWFHESJIHKCBDH HE THINKS MY SISTER IS CUTE WHICH IS "NO, MY SISTER IS NOT CUTE" okay caps lock off sighs......

so, i open up my facebook after reading some books, mum is till not at home. im curious why mum is putting me in charge. And when i go and check my facebook. im surprised, guess what, he's there, i was like,



IM JUST SO LAZY TO TELL U WHAT HAPPENED SO HE WAS "HYE" AND I SAY HI TO AND HE WAS LIKE "Can i ask u a question" and that will be A BIG NO. SO I GNORE IT SERIOUSLY AND YOU KNOW WHAT, THIS FEELING OF IM REGRETTING IT SO MUCH IS LIKE MAKING ME DROWNING. AND THEN HE'S GONE LIKE FOREVER AND I HV TO ADMIT THAT



i hope u notice this and how i regret it so much for not talking to you. im sorry.
 kyjcy speaks.

note to myself :-











tell me who is lonely. if u say me and thats a double yes. For a single day i mumbled. I dont even know why. But dont took it wrong, im still in a good condition. "Well i wonder what is mom doing in the kitchen" "Honey you should help me in the kitchen stop the daydreaming over and over again" im used to that "daydreaming" thing which i dont realized that. but please, im cute whem im daydreaming well i looked like this actually



just die of cutenessity haha please i do look like this. "well you have to accpet the fact that you gave a born to a daydream daughter right? i'll help you with the cleaning" i heard mum giggled. guess what mom is the best predictor ever. she cooked my favourite dish and dessert <3 hearts on mum who knows every single thing about me :) "im home" "hello dad, how's ur day" "sugar bun im fine with a little mix of tired so the dishes are ready or not?" "stop calling me with those silly nicknames it bothers me a lot. mum is currently preparing the dishes" "well you deserve that sugar bunny" dad is killing me with that name. well being an only child is kinda fun. but this feeling of loneliness is playing around me but who cares (i care) so, dinner is set <3



credit to me for not helping mum doing this . "mum can you help me with the drink" "why?" "i need more ice cubes it started to get warm" "well if that is what u want" "thanks mum"

So, i am done with my dinner, i usuallu read some books.  For today's reading i chose "Daydream Believer"
 Mom bought me this book when she travels to America. The cover is kinda cool.


 "What are you doing in the room honey? Mum shouted "I got some of this reading things to do" I suppose that this book gave me some inspire things. ohmy you know like goosebumps??!! okay i expect that you dont understanding ((my feelings)) This book talks about her/his relationship things in daydream condition.



oh well.captured this? feel the words and you find the meaning on your own version. i believe.



well you get my feelings thank you. for all of this years i've been searching something that really kept me stronger in addition to not make me fall how can i not open this book on my pastimes? well its okay. atleast i found my own rights and priority.



heart whispers this thing ohmy considering this book as my favourite book. Mum how can i thank you? i <3 you mum, dad. you make my life became new and build my protect shield for my own. Remember when i told my life was pathethic? Blame me for my wrong thoughts. Everyone can be happy, its their own right. Live your own life first before someone owns you. thats a goodbye :)

A farewell? nope. enjoy please huhu. kyj <3
((happiness overload)) smiling smiling smiling. ohmy i cant believe it. I feel free. Like finally. Ever got this feeling. "when you ready come and get it. stop being so funny, am i the only whom being triked by someone that i know yet in love, i'll die happily if i get you. not to love again, i just want to punch your face for better refresh. i'll make sure that this feeling of sadness era will never be."



I may lost something and my hapiness. But my happiness are back. hater gonna hate. im back to who i am. what i can say to you kindly, i miss u. the way you laugh but i should regret by that. i really do. mad at me? because i talked bad about you? you deserve it.  be a good person when im gone. what a way to walk. your future is about you not me. stop talking about me and i'll stop talking about. forget me. especially the past. make me to stop reminding about you because it hurts my happiness. SMILE. SMILE. i stop about you until here


:) To be honest, my heart flutters alot now >.< feel me? nahh you already feel it. being the crap one in the class is super c00l. being called "pervert" is unc00lism overload. being named as pretty sure makes my hear happier. getting used with the nickname of "happy-go-lucky" by the classmates of c00lness class. i opened a new chapter but in the same story, finally, i began a new life for the real one. like everybody, i want to be happy too. i get what i want. thank you. i dont know to whom i thank. thanks to my dream. thank you.

A Good Bye!